So how am I feeling? Pretty nervous actually. Not because I don't think I can do it. On the day, with the atmosphere and the support and the fellow runners. Hell yes I can do it, I'm just not sure that my leg can. Since the epic 20 miles two weeks ago, I've done absolutely no running with the exception of 9 miles a week later, and parkrun yesterday. I'd had a full physio session prior to this run, including more acupuncture, ultrasound and deep tissue massage - all of which were excruciating. I do think this perhaps exacerbated the problem, maybe for the greater good, if I had taken more time to run again. I was also strapped up again, this time in rather fetching blue K Tape.
The 9 miles was ok. I started off thinking I was going to have to turn round and go home. By the first mile I was moving slightly easier but felt like I was running with a limp. I got through but knew it would come at a price. Later on in the afternoon, I had a few funny turns as I had after the long run. Think it was a combination of the effort it took to run and the low sodium/dehydration factor.
I decided not to have another physio session after this week. I didn't feel that it helped enough (to justify the cost) and decided to just do the self-massage that I had been shown. Couldn't have a salty bath though - my ankle was still too raw!!
I wasn't going to run again at all but yesterday I did decide to head out to parkrun. Once again I thought that I was going to have to turn round and go home. I stuck with it and it did start to ease slightly after the first mile. I went on and completed parkrun, but ended with a very negative "I can't" head on.
I've got new running trousers, new sports bra, arranged a vest, made a packing list, booked my dinner table for Saturday evening...now I'm enjoying my last glass of wine until next Sunday! I intend to spend the week; keeping hydrated, fuelling well, and getting plenty of rest...and trying to find some hope.
I am running the London Marathon for the The Sunrise Appeal, part of the Ipswich Hospital Charity. You can sponsor me here https://www.justgiving.com/Angela-Hope